This last essay my mother wrote was intended as her speech as she addresses the attendees at the memorial, but she decided not to go forward and had me speak on the family’s behalf instead.
Our family is so honored and humbled by the outpouring of love you (friends, relatives and associates) showed our beloved Jonathan. You cared for him and yet he must have been so depressed he didn’t see. My son Joseph chided me for always saying I should have done this or it could have been like this. Jon made the decision in the confusion of his mind because he felt his worth as a person depended on the position he had in the company he worked for. He complained that his latest superiors considered him passive. How can he be passive when he was giving his all? Was being kind and understanding towards his subordinates a sign of passivity? He wrote in his journal about his previous boss in Expedia, Tommy who really inspired him to work harder. When Tommy left, he couldn’t understand his new boss Mikael’s demands and he felt so insecure that he started making mistakes. He loved his work at Expedia and his subordinates cooperated with him but he was let go. His last job at TravelBook was problematic for him from the very start. When he lost that, he fell into depression from which he never recovered. Dr. Abello, our new friend, explained that he suffered from a chemical imbalance and he no longer knew what he was doing. Let us pray to our Mother Mary to embrace him and bring him to her Son, Jesus, so that He will take pity and have mercy on his soul. Father, into Your hands we commend Jonathan’s spirit.